Vanishing After the Performance of a Lifetime

Why am I mourning myself when I have not vanished from my duties? Is it because I was never there in the first place to vanish? If I was never there to perform but most definitely was there in form I must have already begun to live right, to appear. There is no reason to mourn when I am trying to do the right thing. There is only the need to move forward from where I have been, to start performing. To mourn what came before is not progress but to mourn myself one last time is to reappear. The performance of a lifetime is just another expression of valor on the stage everybody has come to expect from me. To simply perform is what I expect from myself, accomplishing what I set out to do. For me, the performance of a lifetime will come at the end, when at last I can stop performing. Then it is time to mourn because I had done what was truly expected of me.