Perspective Is All Mine

As a younger man, every time I was shown the light serendipitously or deliberately I would push it out of my psyche with chemicals because I was afraid of reality. I altered my reality so there was a cause for being different. I embraced the result not the cause of my madness. The cause could’ve been what I always wanted schizophrenia to be – a sane reaction to an insane world. I took the gift of insight into alternate realities or the ability to see the perspective of others and I made it about my perception of reality under the influence of chemicals and your perception of me. As a younger man, If I had embraced your perception of me with my natural chemical makeup I wouldn’t have to be so deliberate in my speech and serendipitous in my writing today when sanity has never been so good.