I remember the time I was asked how come I don’t know people have more intelligence than me. That stripper was certainly smart but did she mean all people and if so why was my intelligence in question and not my propensity to ignore all the people I’ve come in contact without asking even one … Continue reading Naked Intelligence
Tag: Mental Health
Solid Ego
When it comes to ego all objects have the ability to break down and reassemble into more solid versions of themselves. Ego is seeing the built environment take a backseat to nature and believing nature takes a backseat to you. The forces of nature cause ego-death for the purpose of inspiring humans to see the … Continue reading Solid Ego
Mind Wax
I have found that a broad spectrum of simple thoughts gets more attention if they are made tangible like a ball of wax. There needs to be more mistakes in writing that allows the reader to manipulate a sentence by wondering if what they just read is right and if it’s written the same way … Continue reading Mind Wax
Oil and Water
I like water. It tastes good. It moves. It freezes. It boils. Water is everywhere and is clear blue where I’m from. There is also green in large waves if the sun hits it just right. When a painter tries to capture a wave smashing into a rocky shoreline they can’t use just blue or … Continue reading Oil and Water
Ouroboros
As a dragon slithers out of the sea, a heart shaped sun rises beyond it then splits into a broken heart swallowing the dragon. All of us will experience the death of a beast by the love of one god within a galaxy of similar gods, and in one universe under God, even if only … Continue reading Ouroboros
The Most Interesting Read of the Day
The most interesting weekend of my life involved three separate incidents that happened but I can’t prove them beyond a reasonable doubt because they are so bizarre. The first incident involved stones being thrown on our roof, the sound following me from room to room and thought to thought. I remember there being an intense … Continue reading The Most Interesting Read of the Day
The Dimensions of Wind
“No. I should be able to sit next to the Prince,” I have said never. “Yes. I could use a headline,” I aspire to say. But before I give up my seat and beg for attention I would like to disclose that I have more to say about the metamorphosis from delight into madness that … Continue reading The Dimensions of Wind
Message of Light
When I was younger I always wanted to be a messenger of light. I’d walk around telling an uncle here that his drawing is really good and an aunt there that her basketball game was really fun to watch. But the message I really wanted to deliver was that the chandelier over the staircase was … Continue reading Message of Light
What’s in a Name?
My name is Erich. I am the same Erich your hero asks, “are you still driving that same piece of shit, Erich?” That is me. The reason I can say is because your hero is my hero and saying “that” piece of shit puts me in the same vicinity as our hero. I often wonder … Continue reading What’s in a Name?
Black and Blue
There are two people that matter most in the grand scheme of things. They are not comedians as comedians give a complex for being understood by mostly everybody all at once. They are not actors as actors give a few seconds of fame though fame is not how they are known. They are not musicians … Continue reading Black and Blue
Star Light, Star Bite
I lay completely content here under the stars as my smile absorbs countless points of light but reflects only a single glare from one shiny tooth back to the cosmos. If I wasn’t content I would most likely have to divvy up one whole star into 32 incarnations of god inside my head. One whole … Continue reading Star Light, Star Bite
Everything in Ten
Everything matters within ten seconds or not at all. Within ten hours everything becomes familiar and can be repeated over and over again. At the ten day mark everything settles into a routine and the only way to get there is to start all over again. At ten months it’s time to play catch-up so … Continue reading Everything in Ten
People On The Ground
What if I survived a plane crash high up over Albuquerque that wasn’t caused by bad weather but instead resulted in changing weather by me going nose to nose with the ego of someone on a similar plane of existence as my own? Seeding of clouds with my smile would cause people on the ground … Continue reading People On The Ground
Slacker
All of these pants seem so filthy anymore. Every single one of them khaki with dark spots that ripple out from the center like oil soaking rags. I feel sorry for people being worn by filthy pants because they can’t see beyond their lap. They have no idea the more filthy their pants the more … Continue reading Slacker
The Hourglass of Nature
I am sprawled out at the shoreline of this Great Lake looking through blue sky as best I can, making it seem endless, until slow atoms floating across my eyeballs bring me back to focus on what lies beneath my ability to see forever. All I can hear is the lapping of waves and the … Continue reading The Hourglass of Nature
So I Slept
I woke up this morning and I woke up again this evening after waking up this afternoon. I put one eye and one ear, along with half my nose, into my pillow for fourteen hours before I counted to ten, ten times, to get me out of bed. I paced my room back and forth … Continue reading So I Slept
Contents of a Sentence
I would like to go ahead and augment this sentence by putting an exclamation point at the end of it! Before this post is complete I want to come up with a detailed explanation of its phrasing so the reader will know the direction of a sentence. So the purpose of this post is to … Continue reading Contents of a Sentence
Dumb Luck
An acorn falls from a tree, hits my shoulder and lands at my feet. I have no choice but to pick it up and squirrel it away in my pocket because the cap will make a fine whistle and it seems to be good luck when things fall from the sky and plop on or … Continue reading Dumb Luck
To Be King
And the king stands up, turns around in a circle and sits down once again. He is far from opening up the gates for his subjects let alone walking to the fridge to see if the light still works. Wondering what it is to be American when you are the king would be similar to … Continue reading To Be King
A Thimble Full of Courage
I am younger than the sun and still I follow my instincts to go around this wild earth with nothing more than a thimble full of courage. I am younger than the earth and still I follow my heart when going around this wild country with a fist full of dollars. I am younger than … Continue reading A Thimble Full of Courage
Serenity
When I drink I’m the smartest guy in the room. Then I realize I’m the only guy in the room in a house that is vacant, in a town that is ghosted, in a country that is strange, and in a world that doesn’t exist. So let there be serenity in this room. Then I … Continue reading Serenity
Starface
Sometimes my mind goes asunder when I have to choose between being just a guy on the couch or being a reflection in that part of the sky druids have reserved for their favorite animal traits and gods of natural phenomena. I’ve been so completely shattered before that I thought the constellations were aligned with … Continue reading Starface
Blow Wind
I walk the line between prodigy and master. And then I wake up, dust myself off, and put my little league trophy back on the shelf. The world is a large place with endless competition and I am the one getting played like a tuba. There is only one of me in a huge ensemble … Continue reading Blow Wind
Time Capsule
I was a thirteen year old imaginative kid running around saying that someday humans will put all information and knowledge into a crystal somehow, bury one and shoot one into space, so that when we are gone future inhabitants or visitors will know what we had been up to before our untimely demise. They will … Continue reading Time Capsule
The Big Blink
“I can’t think,” is what an elderly lady was saying over and over in the hospital that first time which I like to call the Big Blink. That is where I bit my tongue, literally, for hours before I fell into a state of catatonic slumber for a week, not able to remember a damn … Continue reading The Big Blink
Dancing Letters
Letters are an incongruent assembly of lines and curves until they become a myriad of pictures. Some people can draw the straightest lines that on there own would seem unnatural but when they are put up against thousands of curves the perfect line becomes an extraordinary story. Some artists use curves and points to fill … Continue reading Dancing Letters
Infinite Atoms
Guilt happens when you have been told your whole life that when you die you will go to heaven but you question if there is a heaven and instead you find yourself trying to explain to friends there is a simulation that makes you immortal across infinite universes but only if you choose to join … Continue reading Infinite Atoms
The Universal Reputation
Each one of us thinks we are very important, as important as the next guy, and we are, but a person is awarded money to purchase resources from the ground for doing good and a small amount of elitists think they do the greatest good. Measuring a person's worth in this way may be an … Continue reading The Universal Reputation
Drawbridge At The Center of Town
I used to jump off a high drawbridge, which was illegal, testing the waters to see if my cautious side would surrender to the turbulence of fear versus bravery that could be mistaken for stupidity. There was a lot of foreboding brought about from previous mishaps and my cautious side would ensure me avoiding injury … Continue reading Drawbridge At The Center of Town
Gondola to Eden
I like to go running. And then I wake up wondering what was I running from. Was it a giant scythe wielded by a laughing witch seeking mold to make a potion to paralyze me? Could it have been a long winded lecture about a sabbatical gone mysteriously right but instead I get marked wrong … Continue reading Gondola to Eden
Little Hands
I am conceited when it comes to my perfect little hands. I will gaze at them for too many minutes as I scrunch four fingers to the top of my palm, revealing their shortness and sophistication compared to an ape. How shiny my fingernails are, and how many galaxies would I destroy if I were … Continue reading Little Hands
Hurried To Go Nowhere
Why do I always have the feeling to hurry along going nowhere? I suppose the nomad in me has never left. It used to be that I would get the idea to go far away with a destination in mind. To meander with purpose towards an ideal outcome. While on my way there I would … Continue reading Hurried To Go Nowhere
A Spectacle of Ideas
When I drift into the empty space of my childhood I am reminded how rigid my memories are from that period of my life, as they are so few. A place where my behavior was more sedentary then the chaos that ensued during my more troubled years when I was hyperactive and impulsive. This shows … Continue reading A Spectacle of Ideas
The Game of Synchronicity
I have been wanting to write but unable to get out of the game. This game has no winners, so losers never quit and winners never play. The game is called sanity - mental order that takes very long to get started and a short time to end, not to be shared or borrowed but … Continue reading The Game of Synchronicity
The Point of Serenity 1
I came back to reality by journaling what was happening around me and so I will trust that this is where I began to make sense out of where I was emotionally, where I was headed. Having been partially successful with the recovery process before, I had decided to finally stop the madness when I … Continue reading The Point of Serenity 1
Misery Loves Company
In this early recovery I am realizing that if I don’t side with the ideology of sobriety I won’t have any friends to share with the fact that I am sober. If I can’t share it, I won’t be sober much longer because of my own persuasion to seek what I know. My reason for … Continue reading Misery Loves Company
Inertia
“Inertia makes for a decent decade but a wasted lifetime.” - FEM It seems to me if one second was equivalent to one snowflake then rolling around a snowball to make the head of a snowman could contain up to ten years - while the rest of him, packed tightly, could hold a lifetime … Continue reading Inertia
Home Again
Now that I had arrived back home it seems I would now be able to move on with my life, maybe go back to school, get a job - rather than lay around Albuquerque trying to fit in with punk rock artists but falling short by drawing help with rent from a few Marilyn Manson … Continue reading Home Again
Ireland II – Self Discovery and the Courage to Know
It’s fitting that twenty five years ago around this date on Thanksgiving I was in Ireland away from my family. If someone told me twenty five years ago I would one day have a family of my own I wouldn’t have been surprised. If that same person told me I was going to be battling … Continue reading Ireland II – Self Discovery and the Courage to Know
Amsterdam II
So as the jokers would want, I began to listen and watch at a tertiary level the bazaar that was before me. I was not an active participant nor was I applauding. I was enjoying the whole experience as an outside observer because that is where I was coming from, out of my normal self. … Continue reading Amsterdam II
Dresden, Germany
As a young man I broke away from my sheltered upbringing by leaving the lakes and beaches of home, heading to the ruins of Dresden with a notebook and a backpack sized for a mule. I met a premature mentor carrying a guitar and possessing a shaky voice. With the promise of hat money, and … Continue reading Dresden, Germany
Francis Erich McElroy 