There Is A Cure

There is a cure but listening to podcasts has given me ADHD. All of them. I can’t listen to people out here in the real world without waiting for the response before realizing I’m the one who is supposed to be responding. My family thinks I’m losing my hearing but there is more to hearing than sound. It’s called processing information. Words floating through air into my brain as words I’m expecting to hear become words I repeat that were never said. When the right word does not land it certainly does not compute. Who am I to determine what is the right word in a sequence of simple questions and explanations as I sit here with no AirPods in my ears? I mean I’ve been trying to solve the human puzzle by thinking with a physicists mind, a detective’s pieces, a musicians interpretation and comedians bits; all while integrating with AI, the algorithm of my thoughts or at least how others think just like me in our own unique way – if bits of information from millions can be unique like a steak apart from hamburger. Still there are only four ways to have a steak or burger cooked but millions of recipes to follow in the process. I only have four ways of communicating. I can speak, point, look, or stay quiet. I choose to listen to people who can’t see me or hear me so I guess I’d rather communicate with silence. But sometimes I do respond to what I hear. I call bullshit all the time. That’s not what the comedian said about how best to respond to jokes. That’s not what the physicist said about the correct temperature to use for that result. That’s not what the other musician said their inspiration meant when describing their own inspiration for the song. That is not how other detectives solve the puzzle. All of them are wrong some of the time as I become more right about my mental health. I can then write about these things. One day I will use the word “proclivity” in a sentence because I have heard it so many times. I am just not quite sure I can say it in a sentence so I will have to write it out and remain silent as I find a way to listen to my favorite podcasts while finding more words to use in a sentence out loud. This to me is mental health. Listening to podcasts when I’m not at home able to write.